Every time I start this. I am always amazed at where I am at emotionally, physically, mentally. Every time it is different. I feel like I am always setting new goals and looking forward to my future. The choices I make define who I am, and who I am not. Recently I did have my heart broken once again, and it doesn’t get easier any time. Finding ways to cope with myself I find to better myself always helps me emotionally and mentally.
If you’d asked me 8 months ago where I thought I’d be. It would be a totally different answer than what I experienced today. If you asked me 2 months ago where I would have been or my plans it would be different from what I thought and where I am today.
Firstly, I started a new job which for the first time I actually really like. I do not mind it, and most of all I do not dread coming into work. Secondly, I live in an amazing area where I get to experience new adventures and see beauty in nature/city. Thirdly, although I spent the last year building a relationship with friends and family. I am strong enough to keep those relationships and be strong enough to be on my own and put trust in those relationships.
This year I have accomplished getting a job I do not dread, riding a motorcycle, learning how to handle and shoot a gun, traveling to Palm Springs Aerial Tram on my own and going to Solvang, being confident to dine out alone. I even went to the Long Beach Convention Center for MidSummer Scream 2022! I also recently moved out of state going to a place I know no one, and accomplished getting my own apartment.
The year is not over. I cannot wait to ski! Go backpacking/camping on my own! Come back to Los Angeles to visit friends and family! Save up for that motorcycle I am going to ride through my new state next summer! I am trying to get into running and boxing. Have a good holiday and meet new people to make friends! 🙂
Although I did experience a heartbreak. I still put love into others in my job. One day I hope to love harder and be someones’ partner. For now I am strong for myself, and will never stop continuing to work on my mental, physical, and emotional health.